Unexpected Numbness
Jun. 30th, 2010 02:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rickpsThe IAGSDC (International Association of Gay Square Dance Clubs) Annual Convention kicks off tomorrow. Chicago this year. And I can honestly say I'm feeling numb about it. I'd completely forgotten about the annual convention hoopla and the gathering of the faithful.
Which is something of a surprise to me. For 11 years I was a devoted (can we say obsessive?) square dancer. For five (I think) of those years, I was Prez of one of San Francisco's gay square dance clubs and carried the message time and again of the purity and wonder that is square dancing out into the community. Our square dance family celebrated the good times and grieved over the misfortunes of our family members. I made some great friendships, and lost a few too.
And so today, when I would normally be winging my way to Chicago, a suitcase packed with monogrammed Tshirts, club badges, and trinkets dragging behind me, I find I don't care. I'm relieved that I don't have to stress over those Advanced square dance calls that were never quite securely glued to my brain. I can see so many other uses for the vacation time and dollars. Yes, I miss some of my square dance friends. But we still find ways of getting together without the need to 'square up'.
Maybe being numb is a good thing. Wow.
Which is something of a surprise to me. For 11 years I was a devoted (can we say obsessive?) square dancer. For five (I think) of those years, I was Prez of one of San Francisco's gay square dance clubs and carried the message time and again of the purity and wonder that is square dancing out into the community. Our square dance family celebrated the good times and grieved over the misfortunes of our family members. I made some great friendships, and lost a few too.
And so today, when I would normally be winging my way to Chicago, a suitcase packed with monogrammed Tshirts, club badges, and trinkets dragging behind me, I find I don't care. I'm relieved that I don't have to stress over those Advanced square dance calls that were never quite securely glued to my brain. I can see so many other uses for the vacation time and dollars. Yes, I miss some of my square dance friends. But we still find ways of getting together without the need to 'square up'.
Maybe being numb is a good thing. Wow.
